Posted by Mark Schmitz
“Now, let the weeping cease; let no one mourn again. For the love of God will bring you peace. There is no end.” — Sophocles
When I look back on my life, I sometimes feel again the pain of how things used to be; the pain of a life once led. But I know that my life doesn’t ever have to be as difficult and “dramastic” (my word for “fantastically dramatic”) as it once was. My life never has to be as out of control, as unmanageable or as terrifying. It simply isn’t necessary for my addictions to haunt me at every turn. Time has in fact moved on, as it must. The past is over, I accept my relationships as they are and I’ve begun to know real safety.
Maybe I’d have to completely bale altogether from my recovery plan and path toward personal growth for quite some time before I’d go back completely to the way I acted and lived before. I may slip today, or some future date; I make no promises of perfection. I can never let myself forget however, that as an addict; I am one decision – one bad choice, away from using or acting out. But that is very different from going back to the beginning, before my new life. Each day I choose not to stray from the path I am now on, my heart is strengthened so that I no longer want to go back.
Through this blog, I wish to share with my readers to live life “one day at a time” whether you’re in a 12 step program of recovery or not. If you read my earlier blogs, you’ll come to know that I’m not, though I am part of a recovery group (SMART Recovery). Finally, trust, as I do, that you have all the time you need.
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