“He communicates information and brings people together. That’s why in medical astrology Gemini rules the nervous system; it functions as a network to carry messages from the senses to the brain. In social situations, the Gemini archetype is also the catalyst. This involves two factors of course – positive and negative (dual). In the positive sense, Gemini friends are good at circulating your business card at social events. Give them a stack of cards to add t their gardener’s, hairdresser’s, caterer’s, seamstresses. But, in the negative sense, beware of the gossip tendency.” – Kathleen Burt
I am a Gemini. There was a time when I was ashamed to say that I’m a Gemini. People would begin to go off about how horrible their entire life experience has been with us Gems. Really. And then they’d hurl their judgments of me (cloaked as comparisons of course), by the time they were done, I felt like an inappropriate, over talkative, manipulative ass. I’d try to recover by saying, “I’m gregarious”. But you wouldn’t even believe the number of people that chose to believe that I’m not a safe person to be around – because I’m a Gemini. Well let me tell you this: there is a duality about me. And it’s all good. Sure, I may be Bi-polar. But that’s all good too.
Some of my friends and family actually enjoy that I’m a Gemini. My duality. Yes, there seems to be two of me in many aspects of my life. But to a degree, it balances me. I still love myself when I hate myself. See myself as honest when I’m lying. See myself as creative when I feel like a slug. See what I mean? And you know what? I am gregarious! I love people. Love to hate ’em and love to love ’em. Sometimes I love too fast. Sometimes I want all that I cannot have or have. But overall, I love who I am, and am happy that I’m loved by someone else.
Please Send Me an Angel
I need an angel.
One to watch over me.
All hope seems to have run out.
I need an angel.
My life is a mess,
And it feels as though
no one’s left.
I just need an angel;
Soft wings of protection
to hold me when I’m scared.
Strong arms to comfort me
As now it seems no one really cares.
I need an angel.
To chase away
To make things better,
To protect me;
Show me how to make life right.
Please send me an angel.
By Mark Schmitz
“I am part of all that I have met.” — Alfred Tennyson
Too often, I have lost my way by forgetting that I am part of a community, a society, a world. There were low points in my life when I closed myself off from others and drifted off all alone. Fantasy, rituals and acting out took me not out of myself, but deeper into loneliness.
As we all maneuver and make our way through life we make contact with others even if we don’t realize it. Looking, talking, smiling, touching, eating, walking, working, playing – all these activities are likely to bring us into contact with others. And the way we act and react does make a difference. Often, a simple smile can make someone else’s day. A hug breaks the ice of solitude. A kind word strikes a chord and is remembered.
Yes, we are all part of the interconnected web of Life; referred to by some as humanity; and we get love and power simply from knowing this. I want to feel part of a strong, healthy and loving community.
- Ten of the best mirrors in literature (guardian.co.uk)
“A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it.” — George Moore
Have you ever thought on a lonely night of the man you ought to be? Has your mind ever wandered into the past for clues to your destiny? Are you measuring up to that awesome charge that was given you before birth, that foreordained call to serve the Universe well during your all too brief sojourn on earth?
If you feel that your load is too great to bear and your chance to succeed has gone by, redouble your effort, rekindle your hopes, and above all keep your spirits high.
You can be the man you were destined to be if you serve the Universe in all that you do. Just climb over failures and push aside fears and see if this goal won’t come true.
By serving the Universe, the mother of man, you will find that you have become the man you ought to be.
– Thomas E. Brown –
edited by MTS
- Reason to Believe: (brothersjuddblog.com)
We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy is when men are afraid of the light. — Plato
FORGIVE THE PAST!
LIVE EACH DAY FULLY!
BE EAGER FOR TOMORROW!
“Forgive the past by releasing the pain; it will only hurt you and others. Live each day fully by forgiving the past and looking forward to tomorrow; you can’t change yesterday or tomorrow without changing your actions today. Look forward to tomorrow by building and sharing you love to help you meet your goals.”
LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN LOVE OTHERS!
- The Benefits of Forgiving Yourself: (socyberty.com)
- Elisha Goldstein, Ph.D.: Refusing to Forgive: 9 Steps to Break Free (huffingtonpost.com)
A Poem About Gemini and Leo in Relationship
Distorted reality reflected off the pond’s mirror image
Moon showing, the Crescent proudly crowning the night
Stars were circling, Leo passed through Gemini all of it making little sense.
I heard the echo around me. Nothing is as it seems.
I was alone then for others understood not my power.
No. I knew not how to control it.
So I alone brought my anger there. No one’s fear but mine was present.
The Lightening lashed, screaming for the roar of thunder.
Finally the battle was over. Gentle rain washed me clean of my hurt.
So I knew peace for a while. I slept dreaming of the Gardens I was on my path to.
I glimpsed the Runes.
I breathed deeply of his Aqua Velva cologne.
Tasted the sweet Texas tea.
Waiting for it to all fade away
And to begin a beautiful day.
Written and Composed by Mark Schmitz
My first attempt at blogging began in 2005 on what was then Yahoo’s “360” page; Yahoo’s attempt at developing an option to MySpace. I wasn’t sure at first what I’d write about. I considered the process of blogging as similar to the process of my daily journal entries I make (written as though no one will read my entries but me); blogging is written with the understanding that the entire world has access to read. My awkward attempts began with simple posts that included personal information I felt someone could relate to or may find interesting.
I soon realized that people reading my blogs were hungry for more blogs specific to crystal meth, spirituality, gay relationships, relationships affected by severe mental illness (SMI) such as paranoid schizophrenia, bi-polar disorder and narcissistic personality disorder, domestic violence in gay relationships and anything addressing the sharing of experiences along one’s path of personal growth.
I love writing and have made some very good efforts at expanding my writing style, to include short stories for children as well as poetry. The feedback I receive from readers is always welcome and often acknowledges my painstaking efforts to share with rigorous honesty.
Some days, I can’t seem to connect with any one topic at all, and the words I search for to describe my feelings aren’t there. I may be tired, depressed, anxious, worried or any other emotion that blocks my ability to write. Unable to write, I found myself getting lost in my other world of digital art, photography and photo editing. The first time I experienced “writer’s block” I resorted to posting an image I had found which conveyed a message and required nothing more from me. That first image was the one in this blog today. As I read the words in the image above, I slowly began to relate to them in my own feelings.
If you are a committed blogger like me, give yourself permission to be easy on yourself some days. Post a picture or image that you feel may share a story with your readers. It’s OK to take the easier route some days!