Expression is the Outer Life
I’ve realized that there’s a difference between my ability to feel, my ability to express my feelings, and my ability to let go. I know there are many painful emotions I learned to suppress when I was young, particularly anger or sadness. Other emotions might be difficult to feel because they are connected to past pain.
Yet there’s no letting go, no moving on, until I stop trying to avoid feelings such as sorrow, anger, rage or despair. I have found the way to begin working through difficult feelings is to reach out to people with a phone call, email, or blog comment. Other ways I have found to help are writing (blogging or journaling); having a good cry, or plan a healing ritual which can be as simple as taking a couple of days alone, just to think. For some of us, turning to our Higher Power, as we know it provides the spiritual help and nourishment we need.
The release that will come as a result of expressing our feelings will help to ease the pain. It’s not realistic to release all the pain from our past all at once, but we can begin by letting go of a little piece today.
Never forget what a man says to you when he is angry.” — Henry Ward Beecher
Do we speak the truth when we’re angry? I know that I am often quick to say, “I really didn’t mean it,” and I may even try to make amends for my thoughtlessness. But people, especially children, rarely forget what was said to them in anger.
Angry words hurt and mark people; especially when trussed up with dishonesty and distortions. Even if our parents didn’t really mean it, those angry voices and words are still with us. We often come to believe that our parents didn’t love us or respect us; otherwise, how could they have said those angry things that still hurt? We still may believe this way, or “make up in our minds” that the source of the verbal onslaught of ugly may hold some sliver of truth.
We will always have moments of anger. But we can think twice before letting anger, dishonesty, and distortions dictate our speech. Words can hurt and people remember.