Posted by Mark Schmitz
“What is the deepest loss you have suffered? If drinking is bitter, change yourself to wine… And if the earthly no longer knows your name, whisper to the silent earth: I’m flowing. To the flashing water say: I am.” — Rilke
It’s not that I want the Universe to change everything about me or remake me to perfection. (OK, maybe I do). It’s not that I wish I was other than who I am, some days I even like who I am. It’s more that I want to have faith in myself, a deep-down, constant faith that steadies me. I want to have roots deep in the earth, not fragile roots of glass.
Strong and deep roots are made of self-esteem, hope, love, willingness, humility and faith. My longing to be grounded in life may take the form of wishing I was not afflicted by defects of character, but that’s a cover-up for the deeper things I truly want.
Working on one’s self by undertaking an effort toward personal growth reorganizes one’s personalities, indeed one’s very soul, around new, spiritual principles. We stay, to some degree, dysfunctional or defective and always will be, yet that doesn’t prevent us from possessing faith in ourselves and the courage to keep growing.
We are all vessels containing life. We are vessels that have been shattered and mended, and will endure.
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