See Yourself as Changing
“The absurd man is he who never changes.” — Auguste Barthelemy
Lately, I find myself feeling sick and tired being me, because it seems I am always the same, never-changing. My emotional life often seems like a treadmill, never varying in its fantasies or rituals. I haven’t acted to alter things, I’ve only acted out. And in acting out I am driven by a compulsion to repeat actions that gave me little pleasure and no joy.
I am beginning to realize that the same feelings come up all the time and throughout the course of each day. I find myself thinking or saying, “Everything’s just the same.” Or, “I’m just not getting anywhere.” My day-to-day life seems about the same; nothing dramatic has happened, nothing special is going to happen. Inertia. Despair.
If I look around at others; in my community, in groups and check things out, I may be able to see more clearly the changes that have taken place. Yes, I begin to become aware that “Alan” is different, and less negative, and “Justin” is energetic and outgoing. Change may take place slowly, but it does happen. For sure.
- The Mother of all Depressions (christophersmark.wordpress.com)
- A Gift So Rich This Holiday (christophersmark.wordpress.com)
- Discovering Our Uniqueness (christophersmark.wordpress.com)
- Personal Growth (retrohousewifegoesgreen.com)
Posted on December 8, 2010, in Change, Depression, Life, Opinions, Personal Growth, Positive Thinking, Self Discovery, Self-improvement, Shortcomings and tagged Addiction, Alter things, Change, Christmas and holiday season, despair, Fantasies, Inaction, Inertia, Intimacy, Life, No Change, No progress, Opinions, Personal development, Personal Growth, Positive Thinking, Recovery, Relationships, Ritual, See progress, Sick and tired, Slow change. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.