Domestic Violence in Gay Relationships


The World Was Mine?

Domestic Violence in Homosexual Relationships

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“The world was always yours; you would not take it.” — Archibald MacLeish

In October 2007, I experienced a very bad day; one that I am very ashamed of. I allowed myself into a situation with my then partner and I ended up getting hurt. I was physically attacked and beaten by my partner; I made some very wrong choices that day. It’s possible during a difficult time to become sidetracked in self-pity, anxiety, anger or fear.

Yesterday, I felt all of those feelings. It can be easier for me to fall into those feelings than to look honestly at my responsibilities at the moment. When I feel myself spiraling down, possibly into a dangerous, unhealthy situation, it’s time to ask some hard questions.

What will I choose differently today? Am I willing to take care of myself before I take care of anyone or anything else? Is there someone I can call or turn to, something I can do to stay on track with my personal growth and respect me?

I know the answers are all within me. I have infinite inner resources and potential. I have people to whom I can reach out. I have my Higher Power and I have a commitment to myself. Through the use of these tools I will find the hope and encouragement I need, just for today to keep me safe and out of harm’s way.

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About Mark Schmitz

Living in Phoenix, AZ since 1995, originally from Brown Deer, Wisconsin. I'm a Gemini born on May 26, 1961. Single, GWM who is HIV and healthy. Spiritually diverse, I'm just trying to stay on the right path to learn all that I came here to learn. That's what my blogs are about - and total honesty.

Posted on July 4, 2008, in Boundaries, Conflict, End of Relationship, Fear, Gay, Gay Domestic Violence, Gay Relationship, Gay, Lesbian Bi-sexual, Transgendered, Queer [GLBTQ], Healing, Homosexual, Hurt emotions, Life, Life's Lessons, Lying, Mental Health, Opinions, Past Transgressions, Personal Growth, Relationships, Resentment, Self concept, Self Discovery, Self Will, Self-forgiveness, Self-improvement, Shame, Spirituality, Suffering, Truth, Violence and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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