Some days I wonder, “How am I ever going to recover from my addictions?” “What more must I do to get well?” These are the basic questions I ask myself, as I struggle with my illness: an addiction to Crystal Meth.
The questions I ask in my mind are obvious, once I have taken time to [...]
Archive for June, 2008
28 Jun
How Can I Ever Recover From My Addictions?
28 Jun
Meditation and Ethical Stance for Rune Readings
Since posting my blog in April sharing the concept of a meditation prior to embarking on a Rune reading, I have received many emails, and other forms of inquiries about that practice. This post will expound on my personal experience with meditation prior to reading the Runes, as well as a discussion on the Rune [...]
28 Jun
Every Child is an Artist. But There’s a Problem How to Remain an Artist When You Grow Up!
As I’ve mentioned before in my blogs, my partner, Christopher, is an artist and inspires me to explore my own creative side. To be an artist is to be turned in to and turned toward the new, saying “Yes” to life in all its diversity and richness. Healthy children face life with openness and create [...]
28 Jun
The Best Mask for Demoralization is Daring
The best mask for demoralizing is daring – Lucan
As an addict, I know what it feels like to be demoralized. My addiction caused me to lose sight of my moral values, my beliefs, and my spirituality. I fell into mechanical patterns of fantasy and acting out behaviors that were separate and isolated from my deepest [...]
25 Jun
An Addicts Perspective
I see every thing I paint in this world, but everybody does not see alike. To the eyes of a miser a guinea is more beautiful than the sun, and a bag worn with the use of money has more beautiful proportions than a vine filled with grapes. – William Blake
My enjoyment of the arrival [...]
14 Jun
Lost, alone, afraid and confused
Today I feel alone, afraid and confused. I feel as if every action I take is the wrong one. I feel every word that is uttered from my mouth is the wrong one. My self confidence is zero. I feel unfulfilled in a large portion of my life. I’m not sure yet what to do [...]
11 Jun
Gay Domestic Violence “Is My Relationship Abusive?”
IS MY RELATIONSHIP ABUSIVE?
Domestic violence can be difficult to identify, especially for the person experiencing it. I have been hoping to blog about my own personal experience in an abusive relationship. For reasons I am still trying to understand, I have been in this relationship for more than three years. How is it that I [...]
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