Archive for May, 2008

About the Paranoid Disordered Person

I have chosen to stand by the side of my partner who through no choice of his own is afflicted by mental illness. It goes with out saying, that this affliction plays a major role in my life both individually and in relationship. Today is another particularly difficult day for us. Fortunately, my partner was [...]

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The Negative Me of My Past

Words can sting. Words can hurt.” — Me
“Self-love, my liege, is not so vile a sin as self-neglect” — William Shakespeare

I’ll never achieve a feeling of true safety by seeing my self-image in terms of my character defects. To give my shortcomings such power is to ensure that I will never have enough faith or [...]

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For All This We Can Be Grateful and Joyful

Tis a gift to be simple, tis a gift to be free. Tis a gift to come round to where we ought to be.

And when we find a place that feels just right,
We will be in the valley of Love and Delight.

– Appalachian folk song

Take time today to feel your [...]

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A Moment of Awareness is a Moment of Grace

 

 

  
My inside, listen to me, the greatest spirit,
The Teacher, is near,
wake up, wake up!
Oh, friend, I love you, think this over
Carefully! If you are in love,
then why are you asleep?
– Anonymous
 
I often know that I have met a challenge in my life when I become suddenly aware of new knowledge. It’s as if a light goes [...]

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My Life’s Lessons, Not Yours Please!

 
 
“We don’t receive wisdom; we must discover it for ourselves after a journey that no one can take for us or spare us…” – Marcel Proust

Haven’t we all known some people new to recovery who enter a Twelve Step program only to encounter an enormous crisis or difficulty? I know I was one of “them.” [...]

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One is, as One is – How to Get to Forgiveness

One is as one is, and the love that can’t encompass both is a poor sort of love.
-         Marya Mannes
 
I have struggled to find the way to forgive myself and others.  Forgiving isn’t easy.  Writing this blog isn’t easy.  I am carrying so much resentment and hurt around with me.  In fact, when I’ve been [...]

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Between Disconnection and Connection is Loneliness

“And if by chance that special place that you’ve been dreaming of leads you to a lonely place, find your strength in love.” – Michael Masser and Linda Creed
 
Between disconnection and connection there is a time of transition.  That time is called loneliness.  During those moments, we choose what to do with that lonely feeling.  [...]

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Age is Just a Number

 
 
Age is just a number, isn’t it? I’m turning 47 this month on the 26th (Memorial Day). What does my age tell you about me? Other than the fact that you now know I have spent 47 years in this life, it hasn’t told you a goddamn thing about me, has it?
 
 
I’m told I [...]

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Dispute ~ Secret Shame Causes Actions of Anger and Vindictiveness

“Only that action is just which does not harm either party to a dispute.” – Gandhi

I find myself occasionally embroiled in a bitter dispute and feel determined at all costs to impose my solution, even though I know it may harm someone (my opponent). I don’t really want a solution at all; I want revenge.
The [...]

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Enthusiasm

“Don’t question enthusiasm.”

– Hafiz
 
 
 
 
 

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